Enlightened - Amy Jellicoe (Laura Dern) Quotes

All I will say is that if you haven't been watching Enlightened check it out,
… though it may not be for everyone,  you’ve missed out on something pretty damn amazing.

"UGH, ‘Enlightened’ is so painful to watch. It’s so good, but everyone is just so horrible towards Laura Dern’s character and I just want to give her a hug and tell her that everything’s going to be okay"

LAURA DERN QUOTES:  

"I’m speaking with my true voice now, without bitterness or fear. And I’m here to tell you, you can walk out of hell and into the light, you can wake up to your higher self, and when you do the world is suddenly full of possibility of wonder and deep connection. You can be patient, and you can be kind, and you can be wise and almost whole. You don’t have to run away from life your whole life. You can really live. You can change and you can be an agent of change”

“My first love, my husband. My heartbreak, my pain. It feels so easy now. Here, you’re not the cheat and the liar. I’m not the nag and the shrew. And we’re not old or young. There’s no bitterness or illusions, no need for fear or hope. We’re just spirits drifting through this perfect earth together. We can be free of our sad stories. They float away till they’re like memories of a dream from the night before; shadows under the water and what’s left is pure life. Life is the gift.”
—
Amy Jellicoe (Enlightened S1E4)


“Everything can be transformed. Every single thing. Goodness exists. It’s all around. It’s just sleeping. It can be wakened.”
—
Amy Jellicoe, Enlightened

“Let’s be hopeful, you and me. We can try to do something and not just be dying. I’m so sick of dying.”
—
Amy Jellicoe, ‘Enlightened’

“Sometimes, late at night, visited by dread and shame, I lie in bed and think of somebody else’s life. I imagine the love that they’re getting, and the relief that comes from being really known. The private pleasure they share. The friends they have and the pressures they don’t. Their sense of importance, the satisfactions of their work. I imagine how fulfilled they are, how rich their life is.
And in these moments, I feel empty, and wanting.
Sometimes I think about someone else’s life. I imagine all the love they do not have. I see the passion that’s missing. The friends they don’t know, and the awful pressures that crush them.
In those moments, I realize how much I have, and how much I have to give”
—
Amy Jellicoe (Laura Dern)- Enlightened

“Blessed are the moments in life when the decisions are clear, when doubt shrugs and slinks away, ashamed of itself, and resolve embraces you like a long, lost lover.
Sweet certainty, where have you been?
No matter…
No longing.
No looking back.
Welcome the consequences when your heart is alert and lucid.
What bad can come?”
—
Amy Jellicoe, HBO’s Enlightened


“I’ve lived in a world full of not-good-enough mothers. Imperfect, bad mothers. But the mother is a child, too. She is a child. I will stop waiting for you to be the perfect mother. I will be patient with you. I will be tender. I will be the mother I wanted you to be."

“Everything can be transformed.  Every single thing.  Goodness exists.  It is all around.  It’s just sleeping.  It can be wakened.  If Levi can change anything is possible.  I will not be afraid, I will be bolder.  I will go straight to the top and breathe light into the darkest hearts. “ —Amy Jellicoe

“You can try to escape the story of your life, but you can’t. It happened. The baby died, the dog died, the heart broke. I knew you when you were young—I know your heart broke too—I will know you when we are both old—and maybe wise, I hope wise—I know you now, your story. Mine isn’t the one I would have chosen in the beginning, but I’ll take it. It is my story, it’s only mine, and it’s not over, there’s time. There is time. There’s so much time.”
—
Amy Jellicoe (Enlightened 1x04: The Weekend)

“This kingdom; this amazing kingdom we have made. This monstrous kingdom; its castles are magic. They are beautiful. They are built on dreams and iron and greed. They are inorganic and cannot sustain. No kingdom lasts forever. Even this will end, and life and earth will reign again.”
—
Amy Jellicoe, Enlightened

Swedish House Mafia - Don't you worry child Lyrics

  To see video, click on link above ^^^

 3/11/13  My youngest continues to have some difficulty here and there about his father's death and also an odd family rift which happened several years after Kevin's death.

Lately I've  noticed him playing a song over and over called "Don't you worry child" by Swedish Mafia.  This morning I downloaded the song (it's catchy and fun -- thought it would be a good running song).  I listened to the words for the first time and couldn't stop crying.  I now realize this has been a coping song for him.  I love you Zack - I'm listening and Chris and I are always here for you, buddy -- don't you worry my sweet child, heaven's got a plan for you. 

I was bawling this morning when I heard the lyrics.

As the grief counselor told me soon after Kevin's death, the loss of a loved one never goes away ... especially for young kids. It's all too much for their young brains to handle. He told me that through the years Zack and Austin would continue to go back into grief. Young children relive grief over and over . He was correct. This year was the first time that Zack connected the fact that Kevin's death day was also my birthday. He was very upset at school that day and had to come home. This is around the day he started playing this song. I like to believe it helps him. It also helps me to share this with others who may face the same thing one day
http://youtu.be/1y6smkh6c-0
"Don't You Worry Child"

There was a time
I used to look into my father's eyes.
In a happy home
I was a king, I had a gold throne.
Those days are gone,
Now the memory's on the wall.
I hear the songs
From the places where I was born.

Upon the hill across the blue lake,
That's where I had my first heartbreak.
I still remember how it all changed.
My father said,
"Don't you worry, don't you worry, child.
See heaven's got a plan for you.
Don't you worry, don't you worry now."

Remember sons - What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger:  http://youtu.be/CH_dWijufDo 

Forgiveness and letting go. Do it!

3/15/13  Forgiveness meditation

“FORGIVENESS FRIDAY” Reminder:

As we’ve all heard, forgiveness is ultimately the gift you give yourself, for if you are holding onto feelings of judgment, revenge, persecution or anger, you are functioning at the lowest vibration possible - a level that will not let you ascend to a place of inner peace, love and gratitude - and who wants to live there? And while you might already be aware that forgiveness is one of the most wonderful things you can experience, it is not easy. To grow your forgiveness muscles, we suggest that you start small. Acknowledge that, in many instances, what you need to forgive in another person is simply the fact that they did not think, say or do the same as you would have in any given situation. You can forgive someone for not having the same color of hair as you, right? So use that same logic when dealing with personalities. You can also try to imagine the pain or suffering that motivated someone to act the way they did – this will make it easier to forgive them. Finally, make a lifestyle choice to not take things so personally: If you do this, you will find that many offensive words and deeds will flow THROUGH you without sticking TO you. Now, one suggestion is to RARELY say the words, “I forgive you,” as this is very likely to sound sanctimonious and just escalate whatever tension there was between you and the offender. Instead, try using words like, “I want to move past this, how do you see us doing that?” or “I know it was not your intention to hurt me, but…” or “When you do things like this, it makes me feel….” Of course there are times when a person really might intend to hurt you, either physically or emotionally, and you will need to address these on a case-by-case basis. If this person has no desire to change their injurious ways, then this is the time to say, “I forgive you for the pain you’ve caused me, but I will no longer tolerate it. I love myself too much, and I will not keep exposing myself to the suffering you inflict.” At that point you leave with no ill wishes for that person and move on with your life. And as uncertain as that life may be, at least you will know that it won’t include any more pain and drama inflicted by the person you lovingly released.

Today’s breathwork/meditation suggestion: Take a few minutes right now to center and calm yourself. Breathe deeply and slowly, imagining that you can direct the energy of each breath into the 5th chakra/energy center located in your neck. It may help to visualize a color, so imagine a calming blue light flowing into your body and settling around your throat. As you do this, consider two of your most incredible powers: your right to choose and your right to act on the choices you make. While focusing your attention on your throat, remember that no one has power over you except yourself. Then, with a clear heart and mind, consider the person that is you. Are you acting in accordance with what you know to be good and true, or are you choosing to act in direct denial of your awareness? Your willpower and resolve are waiting for you to take a stand and live by what serves your highest good. If you have determined that some particular thing, person or habit is not healthy for you, you owe it to yourself to let go! Conversely, when you know what IS good for you, DO THAT GOOD THING! This is not brain surgery. This is simply you acting more frequently in accordance with your awareness, and the time to do this is right now. The throat energy center is the bridge between your mind and heart… keep it open!

 I believe that everything happens for a reason... People change so that you can learn to let go... Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right... You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself... And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together... let go and forgive :)

Just trust that everything is unfolding the way it is supposed to... Don't resist... Surrender to what is... Let go of what was... And have faith in what will be...

Surround yourself with healthy minded and loving people that value you and love you as you are.  For peace for yourself and peace for the world, choose love. :)

Above all know that:  

"God knows who belongs in your life and who doesn't, forgive, trust and let go.  

Whoever is meant to be there will still be there."

2/26/2013  

Written by my wise soul brother, Kevin Cost. Life....

With each accumulating death of a loved one, on the timeline that is my life, I gain insight and wisdom that truly is a gift. Take a moment each day, no matter how brief, to celebrate and ponder the mystery and miracle that is this improbable thing called LIFE. Make it count, because every moment could be your last. Don't stay stuck in a situation you feel you have no control over. There is always choice. Even though the path may not be the easiest, and the concessions high, we are always in control of our own destiny, and how we respond to the variables along the way. They journey IS the destination.

 

 
2/15/13 A friend, Katie Maxwell-King posted this on Facebook today.  It is very healing, very true and relates to forgiveness and love....

I've got a choice...
"I can choose to continue to get swept into the madness, the fear mongering, the increasing levels of vitriole, the blatant and willful ignorance, and pure HATRED being spewed all over the airwaves right now, and out of the mouths of regular citizens.....with some of these citizens actually being people I have known for some time, and had previously thought to be good and caring people...
OR...
I can CHOOSE to see the spiritual SICKNESS that is underneath all of this....The moral deterioration taking place within the hearts of previously balanced and decent people, turning them into something other than fully human...and instead of hate and fear them, feel deep compassion and sorrow for them....They are losing touch with something essentially HUMAN- the ability to empathize with the pain and suffering of others..And for this, they are to be pitied, not hated...
It doesn't mean I won't still see the threat of this type of sickness....Their spiritual infection is contagious, and hurts others. I will still do whatever I can to counteract the damage they are doing...
But I don't have to HATE them in return. I don't need to dehumanize them....
I can fight for equality and justice, and still hold love, decency, honour and dignity in my heart...
I'm gonna try ♥"

"It's important to point out that you can forgive someone without ever having to see him/her.  You don't have to be face-to-face to forgive, because forgiveness happens on a spiritual level and affects your physical perception of the world."  Gabrielle Bernstein


Messages about forgiveness ..... 

The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat... Known suffering... Known struggle... Known loss and have found their way out of the depths... These persons have an appreciation... A sensitivity and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion... Gentleness and a deep loving concern...

I have learned that things don’t always turn out the way you planned or the way you think they should... I’ve learned that there are things that go wrong that don’t always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before... I’ve learned that some broken things stay broken... I’ve learned that you can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones...


"It isn't uncommon for people to hang on to what seems like a relationship with no future just because they had a great past in the early stages.  A person who cannot change the very fabric of their thoughts will never be able to change reality.  Quietly forgiving, moving on and letting go is a gift to yourself.   aVery often a change of self is needed more than a change of scene.  Readjusting is a painful process, but most of us need it at one time or another in our lives.   Create your future from your future, not your past.  Learn from the past, look to the future, but live in the present.  There are things that we never want to let go of and people we never want to leave behind.   But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life.  Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future.   Concentrate the mind on the present moment.   You can't just point fingers at someone and blame them for your unhappiness just because the relationship didn't work out.   Never regret anything because at one point it was exactly what you wanted or needed.   What's done is done so why bother wishing you could have done this, or didn’t do that.   Just learn from what happened and move on.  For in the end, its all we can do.   The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present.  Your eyes are on the front of your head for a reason, So keep looking forward, not to the past♥"


 

Collection of wise forgiveness quotes:

On grieving ...

 4/14/13  From a post on a friends facebook page today: 

"It's sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew"
~Henry Rollins~

Especially family :(
 

 "I hear ya on that...family I can lose, they eventually come back...but my best friend...that was very hard to deal with....I never got over it."

3/13/13

This is a Deep and Profound message ...
Let's focus on being Alive ... and cherish all the little things...
And all that we take for granted ... ♥ 

3/12/13 Two quotes on grief:

“Grief can destroy you --or focus you. You can decide a relationship was all for nothing if it had to end in death, and you alone. OR you can realize that every moment of it had more meaning than you dared to recognize at the time, so much meaning it scared you, so you just lived, just took for granted the love and laughter of each day, and didn't allow yourself to consider the sacredness of it. But when it's over and you're alone, you begin to see that it wasn't just a movie and a dinner together, not just watching sunsets together, not just scrubbing a floor or washing dishes together or worrying over a high electric bill. It was everything, it was the why of life, every event and precious moment of it. The answer to the mystery of existence is the love you shared sometimes so imperfectly, and when the loss wakes you to the deeper beauty of it, to the sanctity of it, you can't get off your knees for a long time, you're driven to your knees not by the weight of the loss but by gratitude for what preceded the loss. And the ache is always there, but one day not the emptiness, because to nurture the emptiness, to take solace in it, is to disrespect the gift of life.”
― Dean Koontz, Odd Hours

“You will lose someone you can’t live without,and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.”
― Anne Lamott